圣灵动工

The morning prayer meetings were good. Felt so refreshed and freed of burden every day. Somehow meeting shiqi for an entire week and sitting at the front brings me back to the sot days. How i wish we can do it every day.

I really do treasure these opportunities with pastors leading us and a great worship team bringing us into the presence of God. i love being enveloped in that presence. feeling this unknown little small joy arising from the inside of me and being so unrestrained. it’s funny. sometimes i feel like soaring. hahahaha.

Svc was fantastic today.

今天的敬拜真棒！被神轻轻地触摸的那一刻起，圣灵就开始在我心里动工，一种奇妙的喜乐慢慢的充满我心，同时也感动了。 奇怪的是… 不知是感动而透不过气或唱的当儿忘了换气才缺氧。哈哈！

i got shot by a low voltage  DNA gene gun today. haha. And i realised how caring my cgl can be. haha.

went with mom to botanics today again. tried to introduce some of the tracks in fly high to her but in the end she still preferred her own p&w tracks. haha. I walked 2 rounds around the track. hahaha. in my mind, a track is meant for running. hahaha. but it was fun walking with mom.

Things i wanna do…

I’m blogging again!

Things i wanna do:

Go running.

Watch a movie.

Visit a tree kangaroo.

Go reverse bungee at clarke quay.

when my stomach is calling out to me…

Ahh.. stress..

I’m hungry, with an empty pocket and a pile of work to do before my deadline —TODAY!

stomach: growling…. feed me………..

cannot work cannot work………

ahhhh……………….

bad bad bad tendency to get easily distracted w/o food.

i don’t wanna be like esau.

ahhh………………

Audrey Loves Ribbons

Graduated Today! yay. I’ve survived. the performance was fantastic! i could watch it countless times. Mom was very interested to know what my experiences were like. So I gave a long speech and testimony. I had 7 family members there to cheer for me. They amazingly invited themselves to church. Haha. My Ah Ma was praise and worshipping God. Oh mann! I so badly wanted to see it.

Shiqi was great fun to be with. Disturbed her the entire night. haha.

Brought rach to shokodu today. yum.

drey adores ribbons. walked past accessorize and they are mad about ribbons. Bow wow wow!

Ginosko-ing: BURSTING with JOY!!!

Whee… it’s been a week since i’m back from my life first ever mission trip!!!

Its amazing seeing God’s hand working miracles in the lives of the people. I have never felt the peace of God so real in my life ever especially so since i’m such a kanjong spider. Everything was so rushed and unprepared yet with God’s grace it all fell neatly into place. And those revelations. And confirmations from the Word of God it all seem so apt!

I felt so blessed by the church staff as they piled so much food on us. AND I JUST LOVE TEAM 28! hahahaha. Feel like hugging Zebra now. Haha. eeks

wheee…. after the Fantastic overnight prayer meeting i can finally GINOSKO what Abigail meant by the joy of the Lord filling her up during the entire mission trip.

I wanted so badly to get the ultimate ultimate joy of the Lord and tried my best to understand and be sensitive to no avail during the trip. Right after we came back from the trip during the P&W, i got hit by a wave of joy and every other session was just as good. I feel constantly fed by the joy.

Then the next wave of the ultimate breakthrough suddenly hit me during the PM. Once the drums started it was like fantastic fantastic fantastic. It was the BEST ever P&W! I totally feel like bursting bursting BURSTING!!! What’s so amazing is that the joy never ceases, I bought it home with me!

wheee………………………….

And i got a stuffed bear! cute. hahaha

AHHHHHHHH can’t wait for Sunday!

to be continued…

Audrey is working at Attributes Kallang now.

I’m so keen to blog more. haha.

Morgan is eating. I’m fasting…. hungry…..grrr

Shall type a bit more while waiting for my email

Was so cool this week. Got to practice moving in the gifts again.

Today.

Getting rejected by NUS was kinda a shock to me. I was praying and trying to use the 7 steps to answered prayers. But i don’t know what went wrong. did i still have doubt in my heart?

Then again, there really isn’t a point to remain sad and dwell upon it. Just laugh it off and pick myself up. There isn’t time to even allow myself to dwell in self pity and wallow in sorrow upon the disappointments. God is still good and i have not lost my faith in him.

Sometimes it’s hard to encourage someone when you are picking yourself up. Somehow i managed today.

I realised that the mind is powerful. had a terrible tues and wed with scoldings and bad things happening from almost every place i went to. it was so terrible that it was till the point when i was on the verge of breaking down. i managed to remain sane and happy after a long day by allowing my mind to kick in and think positively and not let my emotions run my life.

today was a pretty bad day too. Today i realised i need a greater capacity to love others. Today i realised that i need so much of God in my life to be able to be a mature christian to be able to solve my own problems. Today i realised that my putting others before myself, i managed to help someone once again. Today i realised I really need to depend on God and i can’t live any day without Him. Today i sense the urgency to step up and just shake every negative thoughts away, any failure and just move on. Today i realised that being a leader would mean weighing every single word that proceeds from my mouth. Today i realised i need another truckload full of wisdom dumped into my life.

today i’m still trying to find the right close friend to shout and cry and share my problems with without being judged and condemned. to just listen to me and just being there…

Today, i will shake it all away and start anew.

right now melbourne seems like a great way to start anew. I’m excited but at the same time i’m confused.

right now i need more faith.

yay audrey is graduating!

i’ve been trying to add lyrics to my samsung yp-s3 to no avail. hmm time to get a sock to protect it.

Went to pauline’s blog and watched a short video. in the video, Pastor Steve Munsey reminded me of Ellen on The Ellen DeGeneres Show. haha. it’s the type of music and the dancing. i’m quite excited about what he’s going preach about. i mean have you ever seen an outrageous pastor riding in church on a white horsey?!?

was looking at the new sermon release at kallang and i realized that he has many exciting sermons and the one he made together with his wife caught my attention. hehe

i like all the designs: simple, clean, straight to the point, slightly abstract but capturing the essence of the theme. it’s so unlike my designs where there are lots of graphics. it pretty much mirrors my state of mind. always wandering, lots of ideas from brainstorming and lacking focus. i wish i could design sometime simple that i myself actually like. rachel’s 21st invitation card was like a HUGE disaster to me but she loved the SIMPLE design to the core. i thought it was just about ok.

it’s subjective, i still do like my messy CREATIVE designs. it’s like a fruit platter where you get a ‘rojak’ of mangoes, watermelon, grapes, oranges…yummy and you get to enjoy ALL of them at the price of one orange. Wahh haha. value for money design. yesh. The rojak design rules.

i’m so glad i took leave from work today. went to np to get some graduation stuff and finally went home EARLY. like the EARLIEST ever since i started work. this calls for a better paying job.

AUDREY IS GRADUATING!!!

whee…. and i’ve got 2 extra invitations since dad would be taking the vip seat.

AHhhh…. I’m graduating!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i hope that after viewing the silly video at the start of the ceremony i would still have the courageous to stand up there to collect my certificate. i really do hope they editted it so so so well so that i don’t sound too silly. haha. eeks.

撞 墙

I felt like swallowing back my words and eating them right after they came flying out of my mouth on friday. grrr…. never exercise wisdom and sensitivity. bad bad.

i have to learn to hold my tongue at times… these two verses like totally applied to me. grrr…

proverbs 15:2 The tongue of the wise useth knowledge aright: but the mouth of fools poureth out foolishness.

proverbs 17:28 Even a fool, when he holdeth his peace, is counted wise: and he that shutteth his lips is esteemed a man of understanding.

pls let me be tongue tied in situations when i have to just SHUT UP!!! A time when i feel like doing this to redeem myself: 撞 墙

service was fantastic. had another revelation about myself and my goal. whee…

a tortoise moves slowly because of its heavy shell and feet structure. rachel’s backpack= tortoise shell. audrey + backpack = tortoise

cool stuff

Got to know more people today

attributes was like a war zone once again today while everyone scampered for their books. haiz. haha. i grew like 0.01mg of muscle mass since ystd while we packed the books. i’m sure of that! coz the attributes table didn’t seem that heavy anymore. there will come a day where i’ll be able to lift it on my own.

some of the brothers were really nice to volunteer their help though. made everything so much easier.

just through serving at attributes i’m beginning to see some sot09 culture.

audrey wants brooke fraser’s album

oh oh and they play ‘desert song’ at sot during the breaks!! keeps me happy and going.

working at kallang was great fun today. i really thought i would get at least a chiding for my mistake today, to my surprise i was pardoned. wow! and robin seemed to be in an exceptionally good mood. my dear little squirrel on the laptop’s desktop was complimented for looking cute. haha. not to mention the strange jokes about microplasma that circulated around. hmmm….

it’s strange but i really like pastor derek’s and pastor bobby’s sessions. hmmm.. i mean i like pastor ming and pastor aries as much but it’s different. why? because after pastor derek and bobby’s preaching i felt really convicted and it was always about something i could relate to, even flowing in the spirit seemed stronger and easier.

brandon heath brooke fraser brandon heath brooke fraser brandon heath brooke fraser

since travelling from pioneer to lavender and lavender back to queenstown, i’ve developed a liking to travel long journeys alone. it gives myself some time to think, ponder, reflect, listen to music and observe my surroundings. and of course do all the additional ‘ling ling lang lang’ things without anyone disturbing me. wah hahaha

wow i’m feeling really tired now….